Everyday Struggle

A little late on the game, but I watched that film on Notorious BIG's life, NOTORIOUS. Pretty good-a little on the B list, but I think it was a good idea that they used lesser known actors. 

I've been listening to some of his stuff from Life After Death. 

Now, I'm no drug dealer, but I can definitely relate to this song in some level. He was pretty self depreciating and am some point, wanted to just end it and fade to black...at least is what I can get from a few of his songs. I use to be really weak about living life and rolling with the punches earlier in formative years...wanting to give up and cash out. I found myself at a crossroad of this again a couple of days ago, except the difference today is I got alot to live for, and always have. I've got these great ideas, wonderful friends and family, and tools to dig myself above-not out, of the hiccups I've created or been a part of. Shit, I ain't perfect, and I don't strive to be. I just want to be happy.