Well well well.
Has it nearly been a year since I've been on this? The lack of posts means the more time I've spent figuring it out. I'm being vague here, because "it" is a variable of things.

Interesting fact: I once have been broken up with, with I quote, "There are a lot of variables." Three things to note:

1. I was shocked he could qualify himself to use this term, "variable" and knew how to use it properly.
2. This was being used in an segue in reasons we should separate
3. I was being broken up with with someone I believed I would inevitably break up with.

It left a bitter taste in my mouth, however, it was a relationship heading south going nowhere. Didn't matter who broke up with who, job had to be done.

I hope I'm not confusing you with this random snippet of my failed relationships. There's something interesting in wanting to talk about an epiphany of inspiration turning into a rant about a break up.

Anywho,
I've been working for awhile now. Thinking a lot for awhile now. And actually doing for a while now.
It's interesting how you let things happen you start doing something because it was something that was there, that was available, maybe even handed to you. Then you stick awhile because you're learning, and nothing else better is around for you to take. Things get better, you make more money more friends. You get comfortable-these things that were so difficult back then, now you can do in your sleep. Your problems get bigger, challenges harder... and you laugh about how your biggest problems back then were figuring out an Excel spreadsheet. You've got bigger fish to fry now. But you absolutely love it. Then it gets pulled away from you. As quickly as it had arrived.

Something you didn't think too much about before, now is all you think of.

I've been applying every day. I could try even more harder, but I think I'm just stressing myself out. I think the best thing I can do for myself is to go back to school, relax, and start finding some passion.

I was watching PS22 on youtube and their choir. Little known fact about me: I was a huge choir kid in elementary school. I honestly don't know what got me into it, but all I know is that I LOVED IT. I may not be the best singer, but I love music and harmonizing. I'm gonna start looking into it.